well maybe i'm a fool...but i guess i'll try again.
i called mom on friday. at first, it was a hostile call...but it turned into a conversation. i knew it would happen. i missed her. i dreamed about her. i think i longed for her. i'm sure i needed her to be in my life.
i have to realize things are not going to change. she will always like him better. he's her favorite. i must temper my whole relationship with this knowledge. i have to accept it.
no one knows yet. don't have the nerve to tell anyone. i'm pretty sure brennan has been talking to her. she knows too much. can't really blame him. he's just a kid who needed his grandma.
i'm gonna take it slow...as i try again.
